Welcome ICLW!!

This is my first month to participate in ICLW and I am so excited! Thanks to all of you stopping by, I'd love for you to decide to stay and follow along. I'm always on the lookout for new blogs to follow and support as well.

Here's a brief history of our Trying To Cconceive. I didn't start blogging about all of this until we were seeing our RE because I kept hoping the other stuff would work, but that wasn't the case We tried to conceive naturally for over a year. Then went to my OB who put mes on Clomid. That never worked so we finally after almost 2 years (Why so long you ask?  Because our insurance pays for zero part of our RE visits and we were hoping to avoid that.) scheduled an appt with an RE. After much testing, we found out I didn't ovulate and his SA showed a low sperm count and low motility.

We did four rounds of IUI, which compared to so many sweet women I've met on this journey does not sound like a lot. Since our insurance doesn't cover any of this so the further we went, the more money we were spending out of pocket. Instead of IVF we have opted to pursue adoption. The fact that my heart has always been drawn to adoption plays a key part in that decision. Another big factor is the expense of IVF and the uncertainty if it will even work. Probably one of the biggest reasons we chose adoption is that I just can't continue to go through the uncertainty. I trust God fully, but it is heartbreaking every single month. I feel like I have lost a piece of myself over the last 2.5 years. I want that back. I want to be the happy, easy going girl I've always been. I also never want to lose that faith I have in God.

So instead of putting our money into IVF and having a chance that it might work, we are choosing to adopt. We have just made that decision this month and have narrowed down our agencies. We have an informational meeting with our front runner tomorrow night. We are excited to learn more from them and hopefully come to a decision soon.