I'm so excited about this weekend because it's our annual church Ladies Retreat. Words do not begin to explain how much I need this weekend right now. I went back and forth about going. When my friends started signing up in November or December, I wasn't sure where we would be at with our fertility treatments, so I held out. Then we began looking at adoption agencies and I held off because I didn't want anything to get in the way of that. Just this past Sunday, I finally signed up and wrote my check for the retreat.
Then we had our informational meeting with the agency we really love this week. We were invited to attend the Adoption Education Seminar if we wanted to sign up with them. We are pretty certain we are going to go with this agency so we considered it, but then last night we had a long talk and there were many tears on my part. Even though this is soooo exciting, it's scary, it's new, it's frustrating and so many other things. I just had a break down moment. I'm sick of waiting to have a baby. I waited to start a family. Then we started trying for a family and had to wait. Now I have to wait to adopt. I'm just not being patient. Believe me, I know God has an amazing plan for us and I haven't lost my faith in HIM. I just had one of those nights that I'm sure most of you can relate to. Today things are looking a little brighter.
After all my crying last night, I decided I really need this weekend. I need time with God. I need some time in the woods with myself. I need time with my friends. I need time to think. I just need some time away.
I'm leaving today after school and won't be back until Sunday. I have so many blogs to catch up on and emails to return so if you are waiting for a response, just know I will get to you as soon as I get back. But, right now I need to get away.
I hope your weekend is as good as I anticipate mine being.
I just had to include this too. It's from the website of the camp where we are staying.
We are staying in The Woods section. Looks so beautiful!